Heart Defect

Why's the box so empty?
Feeling like there's nothing inside
Does this thing still beat?
Beat like a mgic drum?


Does it even work anymore?
The section is gone
emotions are drifting away
Melancholy feeling blank


No more back and forth
boom, boom, no more
the box seems so empty
so why can't I fit anything more inside
Defective Heart

Clowning Around

Please don't forget my name
Keep me close to your heart
That's the way
The way i'll live forever


Closing my eyes tonight
Maybe for the last time
I'm sorry, so don't try to wake me
I'm playing around in wonderland


Keep me in your thoughts
I dance around in your dreams
I won't be lost
I just never returned to my body


So please don't open my eyes
Let me be here just a little longer
Laying here seeming like i'm sleeping
Open my eyes to see reality
The reality of Death

G.o O.n D.own

I always secretly believed
thought maybe there was something more
Tried more and more
Now I can't even care to say your name

Comes out you're just a fake
Fake like I was told
you never proved me otherwise
Never gave me any hope

this is the point i've come to
You were never there for me
won't even be hard to say goodbye
Not like you exist to me anyway

I've stopped pondering
The answer isn't hiding
The fact that you aren't there
Plainly pointed out through time.

Cursive

Forgive me Dear Angels
I've given up on the man
I cannot see


Challenge his views on me
I could careless his opinion
Now I only care for one man
Me

Nabaris

Could you try a little harder?
Seem to me like you don't give a fuck
you don't even care about who I am
You only seem to care about yourself


I try to talk it over
But you won't hear of it
maybe it's time for a little effort
Show me you can do it fucking too


Feel like a disco
Was in the moment
Now to you i'm dead
Actions speak louder than words
Seems like yours want me to shut the fuck up


If you even had a heart
Maybe you'd prove you love me
I'm fed up of fucking trying
Do something for someone else in your life.

Counting your eggs

Always counting on the good ones
True friends last forever
Hoping for someone to come around
Is like praying for it to rain money


Try to make your words reach them
Just to be taken advantage of
Never will I fall so low
As to care for you anymore


Always doings all the work
Never getting any in return
Useless energy involved
You wouldn't even care if I was gone


I remember when things used to be different
Now you don't even want to talk to me
Could you care any less?
Do you even give a shit?

Into Space

Drift off father into space
Make the day go by faster
The things that you are dreaming of
Only to be reality in your mind


Sometimes Making small things bigger
Ruins your future
thoughts of impossible events
Fun at first
Still fantasy by the end


Why ruin what good things are happening
Thinking of things that won't be
Is following a treasure map
that will never lead you to any booty.

From the Darkness

After a Storm a sun will arise
Through the thick malevolent clouds
Shines the light
It's warmth forever welcomed


Now that the bad has showed it's face
Took over, Invaded
the life of a single day
the morrow Seems welcomed of promise


Love sprouts in the shadows
At first a feeling Unrecognized
Slowly turning into a shrub
Hopefully, oneday, a mighty tree


Allow the darkness to lose important
Only then, will you appreciate the later
For new days brings promise.
A promise of life,
A happiness, never ending.

Nightmares, and Broken Dreams

Sink into a nightmare
allow yourself to slip from reality
this is your only hope of survival
Dive straight down
Into Madness


Dreams are now shattered
Words have broken goals
A life time of work
Now flowing swiftly down the drain


Tomorrow has been lost
Before this the past, stolen
Nothing to look forward to
Nothing to gaze back at
Then what is the point of the now?

Wish for a Friend

So many wish,
For their true friend
and as I search for my real ones
I seem to only find the friends who are fake


Forgive me for caring
I never should've expected you to dry my tears
nothing lasts forever
I'm glad this one didn't last long


Maybe if you gave a shit about me
I'd not feel so alone as I do now
I tried to be a friend
But to you, I just seemed like a tool


time heals all wounds
so please don't expect this one to scar
You think you were the first to be a bitch to me
You won't even be the last...


It's sad that our friendship has come to this
But you should never expect a flower to sput
If you ignore it, and never give it food
A flower which will soon by forgotten


You were fake from the start
should've taken those warnings
the real friends I have,
Warning me
Of the sire,
You soon would become.

Breaking Glass

Glass breaking in slow motion
the melancholy feeling , a rush
Feelings of nostalgia reach me
High of the mind


allowing it all to heal
Cuts close backwards in time
Feelings getting more intense
Swallow them whole
Allow my grain to digest


That strange feeling of numb
Excitement as a vase goes to crash
envy the air
it cannot see the anger
In the clouds above


The tree's so lucky
Die once a year
I think if I woke up in the psring
I'd skip crying myself to sleep
For all I can feel alone
Is the Warm hug, of that tear
sliding against my cheek...Goodnight

Harsh

I've Never been one for people
Never cared for whom I broke
Not much of a team player
Still not much has changed
People are still breaking

Feelings of hate have never left
I could never stand for anyone
I gave the world a try
And the world kicked me down


I won't beg
Never will I get down that low
I've apologized for my wrings
but I can never repent
For my sins to great
the Lord Can't handle

Broken wings, Broken Record

what ever happened to those questions?
You said you'd answer 103
Seems to me at least
you only ever needed one.


what happened to " Ilove you"?
who did you have to lose?
what has been forgotten?
to you I am just a memory
Now dust in the wind


the dreams I feared,
the one where i lost you
you told me it was all fake
Nothing but a dream
how right you were my dear
I couldn't lose what I didn't have
Fake love
Broken like a wing.

Word 4

throw it around a little longer
Make it sparkle make it look a bit more real
don't forget to say it nicely
This isn't just some word


Let me believe you a little longer
Since there's no one else
Let those things become reality
then throw me in a hole


Truly you must know how I feel
Used to be found useless
and remembered to always be forgotten
is my name, just another word?
For you to throw away?

Invisible

Please forget me
I've already forgotten myself
I hope one day I won't be lost
But please don't try to find me.


I see myself in mirrors
but why am I so see through?
I can see something that does not exist 
I can see myself.

Deadly Venom

I never cared about the world
I've never seen in black and white
It's hard for me to see this way
when the whole world is covered in shadows


How dare you be such a light
How come you seem so different
A brightness in the dark world
leaking shadows through the world


Could it only have been fake?
that heat I found in the cold?
Have you always been an iceberg?
why have I always seen a fire?


you're not who I thought you were
you're true colours not what I saw before
You just look that way
Peaceful at first
Deadly compared to venom.

Stranger

Let's hold it all true
Make this something real
I know this isn't how it should be
But i'm sorry this is how I feel


Love is glue in a real world
Hope is what it holds together
but I hope that you love me
Is that so much to ask?


Friendship is what it's meant to be
but without the glue
Friend is just a word
without love,
Friend is just a name, to call a stranger.

Not one Half

I never thought through it all
but I want it now
Expecting it to come by somehow
Only Half comes true


I thought I felt it all
but in reality
I've felt nothing
Nothing will come to be


Pour some salt in water
Change it all completely
Make it something new
Make it something true

Never enough

I don't hate you
I guess life in you're just pushed away
I don't believe in Destiny
So what would you call this?


Stop pretending like you know the future!
Cause the present doesn't change a thing
Bandage up time
I'll prove you wrong till the end


Why must it revolve around you?
can't it not involve you?
Stop obsessing over my life,
I'm the one living it, not you.


I want it all to pass already
I want life to be how it should be
Blaming me won't make your better
but only time can tell.

Be Gone

Some times I wanna be left alone
Allow myself to sink into darkness
Turn the lights off
I'm going under


I don't wanna be bothered by anyone
Don't wanna be judged by the world
Can't I just be allowed to be what I want to be?
Can't I just be a lonely soul?


I try to Sink down the whirlpool
I surround myself with what I wish
I don't need what you're trying to give me
I'm craving the morrow
Please leave me to it


It's not that I hate you
It's not that I don't care
right now I just want to be without you 
I just want to be...

Breaking Promises

I've made stupid promises
One i've broken 100 times before
what makes you so different?
Haven't you seen who I am?


I've tried my hardest for you
Mare than I have for any other
Still it's like i'm being dragged backwards
from the shadows I've emerged
For in the shadows I must stay.


If you ran away from it all
I think I would break the things I hold most
Cause I wouldn't be me without you
So promises to others must be thrown away.

Lying

Could I forget the wind?
The way the cold breeze
Brushes up against my skin?
Could I forget,
The time I spent with you?


Two try smiles,
one fake love
Blowing kisses from across the room
they pass me by
as I pretend to catch em
A kiss hello


I can't forgive what I've done
False, emotion filled memories
fade them out,
I'm just made out of plastic
forgive me
Because I'm lying when I say
I love you.

Friend

What happen to you my " friend"?
You've changed yourself
Too many time for me
You're not the one I first cared for
Myth of monsters, no longer stories


you've become different you see
Become someone that I do not wish to see
Please become the one you were
The one I used to love


I don't want to say goodbye
I know neither do you
If there anyway for you to return?
Allow the past to repeat itself?


What happened to you my "friend"?
You can lead a life like this if you want to
Forget that I did love you
Feeling for another, for you are not the one I fell in love with...

Like air

You seemed so different
Not like the ones I met
Just one million times before
Mistakes have been made
You can't take back those were you've said


Why did it all go dark?
We had such a promising light
the sun's gone out, Black
Nothing can be given or taken,
Life, Stopper


Nothing is different
assuming the things as all the rest
I thought you were someone to confide in
Now I see right through you


why has it all disappeared?
Like life becoming a looking glass
have I become like air?
Uncared for, but ever lasting?

Carnival

Nothing makes sense anymore
So walk away while you still can,
If friends mean so much to you
Why are you leaving me behind?


Pretend like you care
as if I ever mattered 
but you're dropping all that I am
Fragile glass memories on the floor


Where is my Importance?
Where did I fit in?
If our friendship was a carnival ride
Is it now out of order?
Never to be played on again...

Fck you!

My heart used to melt ice cubes
but no more, no no
Now it's snowing on the inside
Guess whose fault that is
It's fucking you


I don't care 
not for you anymore
you can hate me
And you can go to hell too!


I don't need you
I never did
so sorry
You're just to fucking fake


I used to be in drama
and you're quite the little actress
Put on your makeup
Your mask is leaking


I was never one to say I love you
you used me like your fucking fairy god mother
I'm done with you now bitch
fuck you Cinderella


I don't care about your fucking watch
I don't work on your fucking time
Welcome to reality woman
Now dig this freaking hole deeper
you're already in too deep


I'm done running for you
I've yet to see you out of fucking breath
Now see if I care


they say to take out your anger
before it's blown out
Well I'm one fucking big volcano 
FUCK YOU!


Don't you batter those bullshit eyes
they're liars just like you
Maybe i'd ave hope
If I could just find something real in you


Fall down the stairs
Join me on rock bottom
don't expect me to pick you up
I'm having too much trouble breathing


Throw your fucking hand grenade
I won't back down
for the time that i've been given
I'll do what I can


 for you I've got the perfect present
A mirror painted black
Maybe now It won't hurt so much
when you see you have no soul.


Sure I might be a demon
Born with no heart to care
But even I can be sure
that you're no freaking angel


I've fallen from the sky
where are you from?
I'm pretty sure the gates of hell are closed
Knock knock who's there?


shut the fuck up
Back up from me
I don't give a fuck about you
I couldn't care less


You're so full of fucking lies
so why am I the one that's wrong?
open your eyes you fucking mole
You're already blind


I ain't no fucking toy
I ain't your doll
I won't be put in your away box
'Cause you've had enough


I say what I wanna say 
so too fucking bad
you don't like the way I live my life
Then get the fuck out


I've never been the saint
But you're no fucking god
You should be grateful for your life
Something that's so easily taken away


Nice word?
Those are gone!
My love?
That's gone!
My thought?
Fuck you!


You mean nothing to me
you're already gone
why do you still live here
In my brain!


I might not seem it
but i'm a little angry
I thought you cared
But you're nothing but a hypocrite.

Boat

Appearances,
throw em over board
'cause you're nothing like you seemed to be
Ignore me, as I choke on air


All aboard
this ship has sailed
I cannot repeat what has happened
those fallen angels become demons
In the dreaded darkness


Nothing is against
Not even I
For i'll always be a forgiver
Even for someone, who has fallen from the sky.

Round table

Forgive me for the obvious
Protection was never what you wanted
Imbalance of feelings
I , am not what you require

I worry not my friend
for the reason I was standing
will soon to be shown
as these wall start falling in

I might accept you after
we all make mistakes
but you might not like me
as the knight, becomes the joker.

Nightmare

Lost,
Our gate of hope is gone
Death rates rise
Please don't leave


Life seems so Unworth it
why do only the sad remain?
those you wish would stay
Now leaving it all behind


I don't want to say goodbye
Mother please don't go
I wish for you all to stay
Please don't leave me here
all cold and alone


Tears flow down the innocent
happiness becomes corrupted
all has become meaningless
May I join you?
As the alarm start buzzing.

Slowly backing down

I used to be on the track team
i'm pretty use to running for people
but I'm done with chasing others
I need to start walking


you don't want me around?
that's fine with me
I won't stop you
Do what you people do best
leave me behind


I'm done being the one to fix things
I'm not your handyman
I don't need to win this race
But maybe it's you who needs to catch up
'Cause i'm done slowing down.

$.$

Heart scarred with paper cuts
Who knew words could hurt so much
Love should only be said
Without breaking promises


A corpse with no name
Kisses his life goodbye
How many days left?
Can you count backwards from 0?


Why are there so many open wounds?
Blades have been banished from existence
Too much hatred has erupted
Mankind can no longer sustain life 


We gave up on true happiness
Only aiming for money and fame
We are the demons, so egotistical
We give up on our minds


Caring about eachother
dying each day by day
we don't care about our significant other
Unless we can spell their name with a dollar sign

Funeral

I knew this day would come
All along we all knew
So if you truly love me
Will you read this at my funeral?


I'm sorry i've gone so fast
but have I ever spoken of regrets?
Ever broken all those promises i've made?
Of course Life was rough, a true challenge
but I'm not gone
for I live in all your hearts


Promise me you won't forget
I love you all
Even if all i've done if lived and died
I truly do love you all


I know there must be tears
I'm sorry Those must be for me...
Dry them, for I feel no more pain
Smile for my new freedom


I've always tried to run away
I'm sorry that now i'm gone forever
Never meant to leave you all alone
I never expected to leave


Remember all those time we had?
good or bad remember them well
For I am not those memories
Re-living those amazing moments with you
Forever


Sorry It's my time to leave
I wish I could kiss you all goodbye
Please don't cry for me
I'm already fine, I love you all.

Demon

Maybe I'm not so human
I don't feel like you
I might be a demon
But I am who I am


I don't have your emotions
I've never felt how it is to be inlove
I've given up on "Us"
there is only " them"


I've ever cared to be like them
Never cared if my life was even real
I don't care for fallen angels
I never wanted any answers


I have never felt that thumping
there is no machine in my chest
If it's batteries have died
I wish not have them rrecharge


If everyone is born with a soul
Mine has been forgotten
I've always felt so very empty
Maybe this is why, I am a demon

Parachute

I've changed for you
So couldn't you understand me
give me a parachute
As you throw me from the sky


I've fallen for others
never knew it hurt you so
I'm sorry my eyes never saw you
but believe me
you've never been invisible


I don't know what I was supposed to be
I'm the best I can, I am me
I will always be quite the bastard
But it's only 'cause I'm scared of running


Everyday I learn something new
Learn i'd change who I am for you
but I can't always do that
I need to be who I am
With or without you
I'm done changing

Rainfall

Let the Rain fall on me
Who am I to seek sanctuary
there are people better than I
Who cannot discover shelter


angels stand above the clouds
there must be a reason why i'm down here
I cannot hide my self from that which I don't believe
Prove myself to a fake god


allow it to pour on my head
I cannot stop it
for it's probably deserved
I'm no saint, no cloud for safety


Sanctuary isn't something I deserve
Not when there are those better than me
Who can't hide from the rain
As they're 6 feet under

Weight

feel the weight
few seemingly harmless words
The cracking, the pain, the final give in
Hart shatters to millions of pieces
It's been broken


the feeling I wish you felt for me
the love I wish we could share
you tell me you feel for another
Life can always seem so unfair


I always try to win
their hearts are always the trophy
But not the one which I obtain
Sadness follows the cracking of my heart
Coldness seeps though the open wound
why does it seem so heavy?

Seasons

Freezing
A winter breeze
there is no snow
For this is the feeling in my heart


Bad if never good
I'll never be a superhero
I've done too much to be 
But I won't be no villain 


Death comes at the end of life
then why am I still Alive?
My cold feeling inside
The feeling of the dead


Wish to feel
the things others feel
I'll never be one of them
the ones who know to smile


I wish for the summer sun
but all I feel is the winters breeze
I fall back till I leave
Raining in my head for spring

1 in 1 000 000

Maybe there's still a chance
Just that one in a million
Hoping my shooting star wish
Will soon come true


If I were to have this happen
I would not let it break
celebrate it if it could happen
Make the most of it


finding the needle in the hay stack
that'd be the day
I'd look forward if dreams came true
reality is, that when things seem to good to happen
they never happen to me

Ring

Looking forward to that moment
the one after the walk through hell
A shining light
at the end of the tunnel
an angel at the exit from the underworld 


I look forward to then
now is only the moment of stand still
hoping for it to go by fast
the reward, always amazing


end this time frame,
So I can slip into the next
Allow the clock to tick a little fast
I want it to finally go off
Ring ring ring

Snow In July

How can we be so messed up
thunder and snow
things that shouldn't be
Now are forever crossed


We're so mixed
things that aren't are
Those things we wish weren't true
Lives fall around us
Why can't the dead be the living

Day Dream

Memory repeating in my mind
wish I could re-live it so
even if it was just a brief moment
I just want to see her again


why couldn't it last forever?
time is only man made,
couldn't I go against the rules
and make it last just a little longer


the happiness I felt at that time
Will not soon be forgotten
Finally it just feels right
Someone who truly smiles forward


that one short scene
Just bouncing in my head
Her smile, her beauty
Something to remember...

Tears Coming Down

Tears never falling
eyes forgetting how to cry
sadness alone for a forgotten instinct
freedom held inside


an angel has left us
regrets ever flowing
the only one they loved
gone forever after


Words have been said
monsters by name
still nothing coming do
Eyes worried in sight of a desert
Dry


The sounds of music
the heat brings death closer
Illusions befall a fragil soul
the angel returns and settles the demon
Only befores drifting away forever
At last, tears become puddles
Those eyes ending the drought

DCTV

Never been so sure in my life
Then Why am I so scared to be wrong?
I made my decision, and I regret nothing
but there are lives on the line


I'm happy that my skill can help
Deduced to find the truth
But if it's false
will more not fall?


there is always something on the line
My life as a detective is now
Truth be told I should be right
But we all can be wrong.

Leave

When some people look
I don't seem like much
But I try my best
Always looking up 


Turn your back to me
now you can walk away
forgive me now
I thought you'd stay


Leave me here
So hurt and broken
go away
I don't need you here

Me

My past is a white bllur
remembering nothing
like never existing at all
so who am I?


Bits flow into my mind
Like watching a movie
but i'm not me
so who am I?


I live my life
Better than the me before I
Proud of my decisions
Regrets are my Medals
So I am I!

What?

Angels fly over the waters surface
the owl hoots as the sun rises
three drops of water creates ripples
the world keeps spinning

Venom

Nervous
Arms shaking
don't wanna feel this again


What happened?
why now?
Don't like this twitch in my head


It's like all the venom
Starts flowing through my veins
the feeling it five me
feels like the last chance i'll get


the spiders must've kissed me
Now I might kiss death
Still shaking
Heart failing
"Goodbye" are the last word I ge-

Myself

I'm not afraid to be myself
I'll never be who you want me to
I chose to put on these masks
As I laugh at ur attempts


even if You close your eyes
I won't go away
i'm not someone like you
I'll never disappear


You can accept me how you wish
I really don't care
if you wanna walk out the door
let it hit you on your way out


I'll never be invisible
nor fake like you
Maybe I don't give a sh!t
But it looks like you don't care


I chose to be who I am
How's that determinizism for you?
you don't make my decisions
I do that for myself
Mind your business

Fish out of water

Out of place
feeling so much like a fish out of water
fasping for air
going into a never ending sleep


ever feel like I do so?
Pear in an apple tree
so far away from home
this is a place where i do not belong


always feel so distant
never feeling like i understand
so many to little very much
Why can't I feel full?
someone like the rest...

Harder

fall down harder next time
this time I won't catch you
maybe this time you'll see how much you needed me
To bad i'm so far gone


Who did you think you're dealing with
i'm a man of many masks
kick me when i'm down
I've already seen this far ahead

Nothing to something

I've always felt like the one who failed
someone who can't find where he belongs
like a cat without a home
i search for life


0 is the lowest I can get
i've always tried my best
but nothing can never be something
yet i'll never be what you want me to be


The rain falls so fast
Hurting the sky as it hits the ground
me and you i'll never forget
how you wished to turn water into wine 


I'll never be what you want me to be
I am only me all I can be
even if I'm nothing, I always thought
to you I could be something
oh how wrong I was
forget me fortting you
nothing can never be something

Pitty

No need for a sorry
I already don't give a shit
I might not seem like someone important
How does it feel now that no one cares

You fucking say all that you want
you were so fucking wrong
no need for you to apologize though
cause now it wouldn't mean a thing


walk into my life
no need to take off your shoes
you won't be here much longer
not when you're trampling over my heart


I don't need your pitty
I need you to get the fuck out
I'm not something to be tampered with 
Just give it time
your five minutes are up
leave me alone!

Layers

You always seemed to be such a kind one
But through all those kind words
I saw your true dark emotions
your ulterior motives don't surprise me


Lies, oh how you've lied to me
User, Oh how i've been used by you
I bet those weren't what you meant
Not when you said " I love you."


you always had quite the smile
too bad it's just so fucking fake
I'll shatter this stupid mirror
On the outside you'll breakdown


flirting, oh how you did so in front of me
ignored, oh how i've felt so put to the side
I bet this wasn't what you meant for me to read
Not when you said " I love you"


You always seem to be so beautiful
but through those kind gestures
I saw your ugliness
Let me crack open the egg you have become


Hurt, oh how you've left these open wounds
Anger, oh how you've enraged me so
I bet this isn't how you wanted me to feel
not when I used to love you.

Mistakes and compliments

Don't compliment yourself on my forgiveness
yeah, i've done stupid things before
Don't think it's all ok
It just might not be


I've regretted before
Some people slit their throats
I used to slit my wrists
As I hid under a tree in a thunder storm


Stupidities
but at least i'm modest
I don''t do it anymore
but i've made mistakes before


I've made friends
but for all the wrong reasons
Allowed others to ruin lives
and ruined the happiness of othes


Life lasts a long time
these are just somethings i've fucked up my time with
They won't be the last things
So don't compliment yourself

Repetitive

I watch you float
seems like you're held up by the chains
Do you need me there?
Can I? Should I free you?


Are those wings?
Or does your hair just flow so beautifully?
White cloth wraps you slender body
as the white cloth covers this ball room
Care to dance?


I'm so close now
I could touch you if I so wished
You'd never know it was me
For a piece of silk blinds you so


gag in your mouth
I can't understand your moans
As they turn to mumbles
Can I hear your voice?


As I remove the gag and start the chains
You grab my arm so quick
Soft and strong, you pull me in
Whisper words, and my eyes begin to tear


Let me help you
allow you to be safe
But you don't want this
I was as you throw though open doors
And I wake up only to do this again tomorrow.

Hello

Agonizing to the touch
You seem like you feel like fire
I wish you could be my new passion
As I admire you from afar


I try to say hello
Those whispers can't beat the noise
wind breaks them down
Why did I turn away?

Images reflect themselves behind my eyes
Smiles, and movements
Snail trails in my mind
I remember you so


The words I wish to say
Trouble me all day
I wish I could tell you about my admiration
But for now, I'll settle for a simple "hello"

Special

If this is how to you i'm special
I'd rather be like all the others
'cause sure i'm special
specially over looked in everyway


It gets harder everyday
to let that smile slip my face
feel like i'm just not equal
to the others in your life


'Cause I've seen the true you
the one behind the glass eyes
the one behind the makeup
the one behind the pretty mask


'Cause I get the butt end
while they get the sweet part
they get a smile
andI get a shrug off


I get used by you
as they play with you in their hands
yet you treat them with kindness
and one day i'll be forgotten

Fed Up

Fed up of believing
Fed up of forgiving, forgetting
Fed up of allowing...This all to happen
How come it's always me?


Fed up, so freaking fed up
don't lie to me
lie to yourself
Maybe you'll be the fucked up one


Fed up of trusting, Lusting
why am I always running?
Why don't I just STOP!
Seize it away...
It's over
I'm done worrying

War

A war against one self
eyes blinded by emptiness
Wings taken from a soaring eagle
Complete nothingness


Accept it,
life has brought it's hammer
warriors bring your shield
The time has come


Allow the apple to fall
As we take down the tree
Allow god to breath his last breat
Friends it's time for our kingdom

Sorrow

Feel so alone
A man in a dark room
Don't feel the touch
Kiss me dear loneliness

Invisible to the world
He doesn't see anyone else
A lone moon in a night sky
A star gazer 

He wishes to be like the others
The smiling ones with friends
but to everyong he's a lone wolf
But he just wants to play


A single tear falls down those eyes
Don't worry, there's not much time
A lifetime is a short time
When you live alone, and in sorrow

50Cents

Never feelings like I'm worth enough
Not ever gonna try
People look and admire me
Like a window shopper in a mall
but do they really see me?
they don't even care

I wish I was handsome
Maybe then I'd be worth
Just a moment of your gaze
5cents? a nickle?

I can be cheap
But I can't be as fake as you
Pearls shine white like your smile
but the light bulbs worth a dollar

You hear that ringing?
Sounds like a phonie
I might not be worth enough
But you're just not worth it

Word of mouth

Hard to say the words
that should not be said
I try to paint a picture to follow
Sacrificing what I can
With promises…Words of mouth

I make my life
but give my happiness to others
fairness of the true world
Fake to my heart

The Silver Medal

Always being number 2
Means being first place of second place
So why don’t I feel like a winner?
Maybe it’s because I’m number 2 in your heart

Second best forever
never to be truly recognized
silver next to gold
I’ll never be as special as the others

Always in second place
Only getting to second base
I could be around you forever
But they’ll always be your favorite

My heart wishes to be number 1
If only to you , my love
But my brain already knows
They…Before I

Succubus

The eyes of those you seek
Tend to cry and walk away
Never going to see your face
Through those clouded eyes

Heart controlling the brain
Their true love to you
None existent
but to you
a gift everlasting

Don’t be fooled by the smile of an angel
Their kiss, more bitter than their bite
remember that your love soaked mind
Only forcing painful illusions on your eyes

You may seek the heart of your fair love
But do not lose your own
For one of such strong beauty
My only use it to control your mind

Sleepy

Say no more about forgiveness
All I wanna do if forget
for the time that I’ve been running
I spent so long looking for you

For now don’t you walk away
Stay a while
Try to create new tomorrows
I’ve spent so long
looking forward to today

Allow this moment to drift
butterflies floating in the breeze
Eyes open wide
Woman of my dreams

Salamander

So many empty spaces
are filled with false emotions
The biggest hole in my very heart
Is the one I have when I don’t have you

You’re the only one who cures this hole
Specific to you and only you
Even if you left there’d be no other,
Only you my friend fit just perfect

Please don’t lose yourself
Down this harsh path of life
for I would be lost without you
As you would
without I

Moon

Darkness Engulfs my light
turn off the bright
Tonight my friends hide
The darkness scares them

Look up to me
I’m so alone
This emptiness of space
You
My only friend

Tonight I’ll be alone
Till the morning when I’m gone
Not a star in the sky to keep me company
I’m just a lonely fool
Moon

Maybe

Do not miss me
I’ve been gone for a while
It’s too bad you never noticed
You spent too long smiling in the mirror

I hope you laugh yourself to sleep
At least one of us is happy
Those words of kindness you’ve used before
Now stale in my heart

promise me you won’t drown
In those tears so non-existent
Believe me on the next goodbye
for to you it may be my last.

Love

Promise you I won’t forget to say goodbye
as long as you don’t close that door
Let me savor this moment forever
Let me just hold your hand

Today is the first
but tomorrow won’t be the second
Cause today was the first time I felt like this
And there won’t be another

Promise me a kiss tonight
I promise you a ring tomorrow
Two become one
Forever yours

Loose Leaf

Crumple me up
and throw me out
I’m already torn in two
no more a use to you

useless, feelings like garbage
Like a paper to write down all the answers
For you to use once
And never to be looked at again

Forgotten

I hope it hurt
as much as its killing me
Ripping me open with your words
Crushing my heart with your lies

Don’t forget to smile
as you wash off my love
Like blood on your hands

As you lie to me
You lie to yourself
Making all the hurt that I feel
your true key to happiness

Don’t bother to pretend like I matter
It’s only wasting your energy
Even if I can never forgive you
You’ve already been
forgotten

Faceless Screwdriver

Feelings like a faceless screwdriver
Something that is only used by you
Never to be really looked at :face to face
Born just to be thrown away

let me spin for you
As you screw me up a little more
Smile as you walk away
Go ahead make yourself feel better
Right now I feel like a faceless screwdriver
One day I’ll be your toolman

C.N

I do not want to die tonight
I wish not say goodbye
but if I were to pass away
I guess that’d be alright

This warm cozy feeling of numb
So settled in my heart
Makes life feel so much more
Than It did just a moment before

Some people may think me sad
Others may say depressed
I must agree to disagree
For I am both yet neither

I cannot explain
this dreaded feeling so
nor tell you how acceptable it may be
For to me
All I am
is comfortably numb

Fake, Broken, And Dreaming

Make me feel forgotten
Might as well be
It’s not that I’ve done see through
You just don’t seem to care

Let me sit here a little longer
I’ll feel like maybe you’re still there
Your face turned to the side
eyes wandering away

Are you truly there?
Or is this just an illusion
the chair beside me
Empty with your body in it.

Even with you beside me
I’ve never felt so alone
Pencil and paper are my new best friends
Like you and I
One just uses the other

Pass those kind eyes to others
I guess I’ll accept your cold shoulder
allow him to smile on the outside
while I cry deep within

Don’t worry dear, it’s not that I miss you
Tonight you’ll come back to my like so many times before
Pretend that you love me, and smile as we chat
It’s all just fake, broken, and I’m Dreaming